what god wants to tell me
All too often loud events and daily busyness cloud your vision of God.
Take some time to slow down; let there be silence, let there be peace.
Calm your mind and let your inner voice re-emerge from the silence.
Allow yourself to see visions, allow yourself to dream dreams;
and you may hear the voice of God reaching out to you.

that is so true.
i've been neglecting god because of my schedules.
eveerything.
and im sorry for it.
got grounded yesterday, resulting in a case of missed sushi
went t get my brother's PSLE result today
then went home for lunch,
used th comp then went t HDB
then went t see th doctor.
so now im back.
dont feel like going camp.
very tired, and having rashes.
ewwwwww.
GOSSIP, GOSSIP,
clique is BACK manzxc.
missed them so much
XOXO

WHAT GOD WANTS ME T KNOW TODAY
You've carried the guilt, the shame for long enough.
You've kept your wounds open for long enough.
The time has to come to let go, to heal.
Keep the lessons and let the pain heal.
Yes, you know what we are talking about it.

i have something in th back of my head about this.
but i cant remember what.
maybe its about my mom's camera.
i dont know,
haiixs.

hahaha:D
loved that china manzxc.
such a pretty, pretty place if there were not many smokers !

DAY-ONE
met at th airport.
but as usual, yuhong was late
then we checked in as a group.
was like so damn bloody excited !
my mama and family came t send me off,
mandy and eileen chew they all also.
so damn happy manzxc,
was like so not comfortable in th plane,
th food was like SHIT
it's disgusting.
like damn seriously.
took lots of pictures, and reached th place at eightplus.
did th usual stuff, collect and blub.
had healthchecks
went t th toilet, quite hightech but dirty.
was supercold weather t me, but others are like nothing
i needed t msg home, but no ROAMing :C
had t buy water, cost three bucks.
but had no choice, nowhere else selling water.
took a bus t firstlight centre, for like one hour.
was greeted by choyfong
had supper of fuzhou fishballs and dumplings.
seriously, it was damn good.
th girls are sleeping on th sixth.
while th guys get th fifth.
i showered, jumped into bed,
it was DAMN cold

DAY-TWO
started th day with devotion.
our breakfast was youtiao and soyabean milk.
had practice of lessons and sports and games.
then lunch.
practiced for cultural exchange, then went shopping till around fiveplus
was already damn dark, like nineplus in sg.
had warm bubbletea, had dinner.
showered, packed luggage.
played poker.

DAY-THREE
woke up damn early,
guys brought th luggage down
got ready t travel t fengban
saw lots of terraces, and natural land.
and seriously, its beautiful.
was super cold in fengban.
but our lodge is seriously pretty.
th room has a nice view.
went t fengban primary.
somehow had orientation around th school
th principal keep asking us t eat fruits,
feel so respected there,
just because we could speak english.
we were like so WELCOMED.
went back t fb centre t have lunch
got ready for P1 and P2 lessons.
sheryl, kelvin was teaching :D
damn exciting manzxc.
went back t fb centre,
had debrief, dinner, then free time,
had lots of heart t heart talk with girls in my room

DAY-FOUR
woke up, had devotion.
but i forgot by who.
had breakfast, got ready t walk t fb
i was starting th day by teaching th P3 and P4
so damn excited, but at th same time scared.
luckily, th kids were so easy t teach.
some of them walked home with us.
then we talked t xiaoqiang, yanqing, and shuya.
played with them:D
they came up t out lodge i think.
messed up our room manzxc.
but who cares.
walked back t fb pri.
had P5 and P6 lessons.
observed how shufang and marcus tong teach :X
damn good too,
went back for debrief, then dinner.
had fellowship, but i didnt go.
was sick

DAY-FIVE
wokeup, devotion.
its like a daily ritual.
its like my last lesson with th kids.
taught th best i can.
tried t make it funny.
yes, kelvin is known as mr pig :D
then went back t fb centre for lunch.
th kids went with us again
then walked back t school,
P5 and P6 lessonsx.
watched, observed,
then had sports and games.
super interesting
debrief and dinner.
freetime.

DAY-SIX
wokeup earlier than usual.
breakfasted.
walked t fb pri.
set up cultural exchange stuff for P3 and P4
helped kiannam hold ties.
then gave out food.
they loved it,
then quiz and blahs.
and impromptu games
super duper fun.
acted like a crazy woman,
then went back t fb centre.
for LUNCH,
th kids went with us,
cause its our last day,
they made us hearts and stuff :D
so sweeeet.
P5 and P6 cultural exchange.
did th same stuff
but no impromptu sports.
went back for dinner
then had t separate with th kids.
they cried, i cried.
damn sad.
most of them were unfeeling.
had debrief at firstlight.
then went shopping.
still damn upset but anyways,
went back early, sleep.

DAY-SEVEN
woke up bloody early.
had breakfast.
rushed t go fuzhou city.
cried as everything look th same as fengban
then went shopping.
me and sheryl went alone.
had talk and blub,
went t mac, wanted use th toilet.
but too many people.
wanted t buy something,
but didnt understand what th shit they were writing
got lost in shopping mall.
and had t walk real quick.
cause there were many guys following us.
gathered back.
took bus back t firstlight,
a one-and-a-half-hour-trip.
shopping/ freetime.
went t sleep at ms ng's room.

DAY-EIGHT
woke up early yet again.
at 4.30.
no mood for breakfast.
took th same bus back t fuzhou city,
taking a train up t mt. wuyi.
from 8am-2pm.
slept half th way,
met our guide.
rushed t our hotel.
ate some pretty disgusting food.
went t mt wuyi for a trek.
super tired.
went t a nice restaurant for dinner.
slept in a hotel room.
looks scary, but damn comfy.
some people went shopping.
i slept, such a pig.

DAY-NINE
was supposed t be awake by 6am
but i woke up at 6.41am
rushed, left 5 mins for breakfast.
didnt ate much as food was disgusting.
climbed a mountain, yes.
i climbed mt wuyi.
i was crying as i came down though.
but without my sisters, i think i wouldnt have made it down.
went for lunch, food was quite GOOD.
had a swing there.
then went rafting, super fun.
seriously.
had a hands on experience.
and marcus tong was saying
"live, and kiss my furry..."
dnno what it means.
but he was saying it t th fishes.
CRAZY.
then went for damn early dinner,
swing again.
marcus teo pushed me :D
so FUNNN.
Weeeeeeeeeeee!
then took a bus t th next city,
some government people book
th whole train that we were suppose t be sleeping in.
went t nanjing, toilet was super exotic.
there is one channel, no doors,
everyone can see what each other is doing.
then went t our waiting hall.
so many people smoking.
played stress with gang.
soooooo fun,
our train gor delayed,
then we went t our bunks,
gossiped about our teachers,
had maggi mee,
slept in th upper bunk.
very nicce,
went t brush teeth,
then disturb people from other bunk
woke marcus teo up.
so fuunnnnn.
alighted at xiamen,
then went t meet tourguide.
went walking, walking, walking,
took a ferry, bullied kiannam.
hahahahah.
super happy.
food was good, people keep smoking,
i treasure sg manzxc.
went for some supposedly educational thing.
but got duped.
in th end, had t buy products.
i said i no money,
scolded marcus teo,
went t our bus, went t airport.
had a check there, then debrief.
board th airplane, wasnt really feeling well.
reached sg in goodtime,

REFLECTIONS
- i treasure sg more, especially th toilets.
- i learn t be more independent.
- i need t buy a new cam, for my mom.
- love teaching, may consider as my career choice

gnna have sakura with my clique manzxc.
dnno how, but i gnna face th music for losing th cam.
damn scared, pray for me.
and people are changing and more and more eachday,
its something i cannot help but watch.
everything is changing or going t change.
i have a feeling that things will never be th same again.
it wont be what i've been used t.
but what is t be, will be and what isnt t be happens sometimes

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !!!!
people are ignoring me.
argh argh.
i hate it. i hate it.
i hate drill. i hate drill.
i hate everything.
i feel so depressed.
nobody will ever know how i feel,
because practically you are not me.
you dont know how i look at things.
you dont know whats going on in my mind.
why are you acting like you do?
go awayyyyyyy,
take away this feeling.
you all have close friends, i dont.
if you dont like me, tell it outright,
i'll accept it much better then.
i know im a nuisance.
i know my attitude sucks.
i need time, i need time.
i need time t change.
i dont want t change.
i cant be me, in everything i do.
i cannot. i hate putting on a brave front,
when i feel like scrunching up in a corner t cry.
you dont know how i feel inside.
i may seem like a little girl, im not.
im not a little girl who looks crazy anymore.

Labels: you dont know how i feeling inside

SATURDAY!
my cousins are like so cute cans,
anyways, went for GB in th morning.
actually, went for breakfast with gloria.
ate roti prata, then we walked t school.
slowly polish boots.
then slowly got people come.
trenna so funny.
she thought at eightthirty then she reach school so fast.
she finish polishing her boots then she sleep.
kaiping come, give everyone like four minutes t fall in.
like WTH.
but falled in anyway.
keep marching. sec ones get to rest.
sec threes get to slack.
sec twos keep doing drill under th sun till im burnt.
dang it.
esther come, we slacked awhile.
then we soooo tired, those people still dont believe.
wendy only give commands very tired mehhs.
all they do talk so much rubbish.
idiots.
esther give commands,
kemblangan like craazy.
i was like cursing all th way,
only those serious ones get stop doing drill
they mean i not serious enough.
idiot. assholes.
im really sooo tired. but you wont believe me?
im soooo glad i threw my boots.
i cant believe i said i hated drill.
but i mean it, you people dont take me seriously.
why dont you all try doing drill for like three hours.
it's tiring. idiots.
then supposed t have lunch with th gb girls.
in th end, they went off without telling me.
so i went with th softballers.
i regretted not joining softball when i was in sec one.
dang, im regretting.
we went t eat, then talked.
then i showered and go my grandma's house.
cause it's her birthday.
watched big momma's house two
ignore, ignore, ignore,

SUNDAY
nothing t do.
watched teevee.
had lunch
watched teevee.
had dinner.
watched teevee.
bath.
slacked.
use computer.

see how monotonous my life is.
dang, i really mean it.
i will quit GB.

freak that bitch.
AND CHERYL ISNT TH BITCH
she thinks she is so smart, so cool.
please lar, so much of a concidence.
tell me th name of your classmates then.
you think th word 'FUCK' is very cool isit?
think you use vulgar, i scared is it?
it's just words, words that babarians use.
whatever. plain wasting my time talking about her.

anyways, mandy is SICK!
get well soon okays.
hate th freaking holidays, nothing to do.
im soooooo glad, im going back during th holidays.
stay at home also need study.
go to school, also need study.
might as well go school study with friends then alone.

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ohno. not that picture. but whatever.
tday is th 4th november!
equals to very busy day.
anyways, met shannen at th traffic junction at around eight thirtyfive
we walked t school together.
then saw phyllis, phyllis went t change.
shannen took out her maths book, her calculator and pencil.
then yukeling came.
and we gathered in th multi-purpose room!
had briefing.
felt kind of left out,
cause th whole room except six of us are pe captains/prefects,
we had t interview th sec ones even though we are not anything.
and we are not even interviewed by th tchers yet.
so nervous :C
dang, so freaking busy for this month

NOVEMBER
3rd - dental appointment & CIP training
4th - student council interview & choir
6th - CIP training
7th - drill practice
9th - choir practice
10th - CIP training & choir
11th - Forest adventure
12th - CIP training & choir practice
15th - leave for fuzhou
24th - arrive back in SG
27th - annual camp
30th - break camp/choir BBQ

DECEMBER
9th - GB flagday
16th - dental appointment/class sleepover
17th - mindcafe outing

Hello !
there's so many things that has been happening !
been going out and bleahs.
november is so busy.
got to go back to school tmr!
like a sommme boooo dee!
LOLs.
read two persons blog, both names also start with M.
wondering whether she is talking about me.
maybe she really hates me, but did not say it out.
i rather those people who hate me, just say it out to my face.
i wont bother them then.

i finally cant be bothered with annabellechuaweilin
her name is not even worthy to be up on my blog.
such a bitch.
but whatever.
i realised that everything she does, shows how moronic she looks like.
always acting cute, and innocent after getting somebody in trouble.
such a good actress, she should join drama instead.
she dont even know my friends, she tags their blog through me, or my friends.
she blog-hops. she copies people.
maybe she just met deanna when felicia is talking to her.
and she thinks that deanna is her friends.
she then proceeds to find out every single detail about them.
eg. msn, blog, handphone number, facebook.
it seems like she got no life or something.
she cant be bothered with her friends, and comes to find others.
such a bitch,

hello :D
no pictures tday !
cause i busy uploading pictures on fb .
like a some boo dee.

30oct
finished school at one plus.
because ms ho was making a speech.
we met mr kang about th student councillors interview.
and forest adventure on 11th nov.
then i went home, bathed, lunched.
met th others at MRT station.
but they not ready, so i met elson.
helped him carry stuff.
then we went to city hall.
went to marketplace to buy corn and bleahs.
elson chose mushroom, so unbelievable.
then we went to citylink buy sushi.
met yukeling and th rest in th control station there.
reached there, saw some people.
then went off, sitting in th little swing at sheryl's house.
with ruth and jolene.
sneaked some sushi, while th others played guitar heroes.
went up to upload pictures from ms cheng's thumbdrive.
waited for time to pass.
started BBQ, waited for chers to come.
started eating then played guitar heroes.
sheryl's siblings so cute!
jolene's mom bought us ice cream.
so cool! thanks alot.
another party coming up.
went home at around eleven.
GB th next day

FAITH!,
My Super Uber Ultra Crazy Letters in My Name is F-A-I-T-H !
In Short, FAITH!
Im a uber duper short girl
Born on 26Oct,
supersweet fourteen!
Once in GMS(P), 1Love, 2Love, 3Faith, 4Kindness, 5Love, 6Joy
Currrently workinghard in GMS(S), Faith3/4
LOVES{♥}: Pink, BlingBling, Drill, Choir, Blogging, Lollipops, Shopping&Sushi
SHOPS{♥} : The Wallet Shop, Chamelon, Diva, Ocean Pacific, Levi, Accessorize, Girls!
HATES{♥}: backstabbers
FAV. TCHERS{♥}: Ms Wendy Wong, Ms Ng SioYing, Mr Kelvin Tay
FAV. MOVIES{♥}: Innocent Steps, Twilight, Big Momma's House 2, The Devil Wears Prada
I ♥ my other teachers too, though not as much:D
My darlings are IMPORTANT part of my life
Hurt any of them, be ready to get deepshit from me


LOVEDS♥
♥ God in Heaven Above ♥ Mandy L.M.Y. ♥ Cheryl C.Y. ♥ Sheryl C. ♥ Phoebe A. ♥ WorshipTeam ♥ GB Sec Three Batch '10 ♥ Some GB officers

-CRAVINGS
{} OWN PINK LAPTOP !♥
{} tanktops/fbts/shorrts/shoes♥
{} more fashion accessories{bangles and the like}♥
{} nail polishes of different colors♥
{} NIKON D3000♥
{} my own room♥
{} touchscreen phone/iPhone♥
{} iPod nano♥
{} do well in studies♥
{} join Singapore Idol♥
{X} girlfriends♥
{X} to be in the student council♥
{X} twilight saga journals♥
{} take photography/nailpainting courses♥
{} my list of books/cds♥
{} clutchbag♥
{} skirtbag♥
{X} ozozo pink wallet♥
{} paint splattered clutch♥
{} slouchbag♥
{X} skinny bangles♥
{X} overalls♥
{X} vests♥
{X} FBT shorts♥
{X} rebonded hair/permed hair♥
{X} grow taller!♥
{} Singapore Idol♥
{X} purpose driven life book♥
{X} worship team♥
{} PSP♥
{X} DS Nintendo♥
{} shopping spree♥

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BELOVEDs♥
♥ CHERYL
♥ LYDIA
♥ MANDY
♥ MARILYN
♥ PHOEBE
♥ WANYONG
♥ WENDY

Girls' Brigade♥
♥ ANNABELLE
♥ CLAIRE
♥ DENISE
♥ HANNAH
♥ JIALIN
♥ JOYCE
♥ KAIPING
♥ KENDRA
♥ LYNN
♥ NADIA
♥ RACHEL
♥ RACHEL
♥ SHEILA
♥ TRENNA
♥ VIOLET
♥ WINGWING aka RAINIE♥
♥ XINFANG
♥ YIHUA
♥ ZARRAPHINA
♥ GIRLS' BRIGADE 2ND COY
♥ 2ND COY SENIOR CONTINGENT
♥ 2ND COY VALUES VENTURE

Choir♥
♥ AMANDA
♥ MS NG♥
♥ TABITHA
♥ GM CHOIR

Sec Twos♥
♥ LOREN
JENNA

Sec Threes♥
♥ ALSON
♥ AMOS
♥ ANNA
♥ BOONKENG
♥ CLARICE
♥ CRYSTAN
♥ DANA
♥ ELSON
♥ FONGXIN
♥ GIGI
♥ HONEY'S BLOGSHOP
♥ HOWARD
♥ JESLYN
♥ JEREMY M.
♥ JEREMY T.
♥ JINQ YNG
♥ JOHANNA
♥ KATHLEEN
♥ MICHELLE
♥ PRIYAJIT
♥ RANJIT
♥ SAMUEL
♥ SINEING
♥ SWEEKIAT
♥ WILSON
♥ YINZHENG
♥ YUKELING
♥ YUQING
♥ ZAIHOU

Sec Fours/Fives♥
♥ ADAM
♥ EILEEN
♥ ISABELLE
♥ J. OH
♥ SHAWN

RandomPeople
♥ AILING
♥ ANNA
♥ JIAJING
♥ REGINA
♥ VIVIAN
♥ RAEANNE.

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♥ HOPE 1-1
♥ FAITH 2-1
♥ FAITH 2-2
♥ FAITH 2-3
♥ FAITH 2-5
♥ HOPE 2-2
♥ HOPE 3-1A
♥ HOPE 4-1B

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